August 20, 2024 Spend the day with me 🤍 It was the second d..
🕑 Added 2024-08-20 14:18:39 +0000 UTC
August 20, 2024 Spend the day with me 🤍 It was the second day of my ascetic practice. I woke up, did my morning rituals. For breakfast, I had avocado toast, an apple, a glass of water, and coffee. I did 50 squats, meditated, and worked a bit. To be honest, I feel down today, and I barely have any energy. I noted my emotions in my „dairy”. Today, I feel lonely, and there's anxiety and fear for the future again. I don't feel like drawing at all. Thoughts are swirling in my head: "Who needs my art? Where am I going? Why? I'm useless, and uninteresting to anyone." Once again, self-flagellation. Today's plan is to take a walk to the bookstore and look for something new. The day before yesterday, I finished reading Hermann Hesse's Siddhartha. I really liked the book, and I wrote down some thoughts in my notes. In the evening, I plan to make a broccoli cream soup with almond milk and a bean flatbread for dinner. I'll light some candles, incense, and finally pick up my tablet. I need to come up with a few collages for Instagram Reels. I'm pushing myself, but I believe that discipline is everything! The weather is gloomy, just like me. I'll walk to the bookstore, listen to some music, and clear my head a bit. Wish me luck 🤍 How's your day going? Write to me in direct messages, let's chat.
