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My frens look what I have I will show what’s inside later
My frens look what I have I will show what’s inside later
My fruit salad! I didn’t wash the apples well enough because..
My fruit salad! I didn’t wash the apples well enough because I thought they had a natural pigment, but it turned out to be wax and dirt. Guess I’ll die.
Sorry not sorry for my fabulous, incredible, and utterly bre..
Sorry not sorry for my fabulous, incredible, and utterly breathtaking pajama pants, which are hiding underneath them no less incredible high-waisted cotton underwear 🥴Last night, I had an absurdly long dream about Zelensky and Valuev coming to clean out the sewer system at my summer house. Valuev, in a rather heroic display, literally descended into the manhole and cleared it with his body, while Zelensky stood above, keeping an eye on him to decide when to pull him back out. To make things even stranger, my entire family and extended relati...
Went to the gym with my mom today. I hadn’t been there for t..
Went to the gym with my mom today. I hadn’t been there for two months because of my illness. It’s nice to feel that my body can still lift a few kilograms. I don’t have any hopes of losing weight, but moving and keeping myself in relative shape feels really good. It was scary when I first got sick and felt that working out didn’t bring me any joy, only drained my energy. Today, it wasn’t like that, and I’m really happy about it.
Please pray for my dog. She’s fine, she’s just very ugly😭😭😭
Please pray for my dog. She’s fine, she’s just very ugly😭😭😭
Me, who’s super self-conscious about my body, at 11 p.m.: ea..
Me, who’s super self-conscious about my body, at 11 p.m.: eating sandwiches and watching a film about the Gulag.
I’m still learning to draw and write with my left hand. We g..
I’m still learning to draw and write with my left hand. We got a lot of snow—it’s insanely beautiful. My brother’s dog has been staying with me for the second week now. I wonder if they still remember her?
Hello, my friends! Since I’ve gained a few followers recentl..
Hello, my friends! Since I’ve gained a few followers recently, I thought I’d share a bit about why I’m on OnlyFans. In my very first post, I mentioned that I planned to use this page mainly for myself—to share my thoughts, the things that weigh on me, and what I keep hidden from people in real life. This platform gives me a sense of safety and anonymity, which is why I chose it. But recently, something changed, and I found myself wanting some virtual company here, so I broke my own rule and started looking to connect.As you can probably...
I’m practicing writing letters with my left hand before bed...
I’m practicing writing letters with my left hand before bed. It’s been a long time since I felt this calm. In case you’re curious—my eyes are always lined because it’s permanent makeup. I was too lazy to draw anything with my left hand today, but that’s okay. There’s always time to do it later.
I absolutely love cleaning floors! And just cleaning at home..
I absolutely love cleaning floors! And just cleaning at home in general. There’s something so satisfying about the order and organization, the harmonious flow of effort leading to something useful and complete. Each step naturally follows the last. My love of order naturally led to a love of anatomy in university, while everyone else seemed to struggle with it. I studied it like I was reading literature—no matter how you look at it, everything just works.In previous posts, I’ve written about my persistently negative feelings toward my uni...
I’m really, really sorry—I honestly didn’t expect something ..
I’m really, really sorry—I honestly didn’t expect something like this to end up on my page 👉🏻👈🏻🥺 I guess I’m in a super good mood, and I feel like my makeup turned out really nice. I was just looking at the pages of people who looked so beautiful, and I wanted to try too. I just hope I don’t start regretting this photoshoot later. But I really, really love the first photo; I absolutely adore it. Thank you to everyone watching, and sorry again!
Flying obesities for years destroying my morning sleep.
Flying obesities for years destroying my morning sleep.
My drawing today with my left and right hand. For some reaso..
My drawing today with my left and right hand. For some reason, the randomizer really loves insects. I keep getting messages suggesting I promote my account, and it’s honestly making me curious.
I heard that OnlyFans is for posting explicit content, so I’..
I heard that OnlyFans is for posting explicit content, so I’m sharing this extremely erotic (no) photo without underwear. I was so lazy to get dressed after my shower that I went to carry pellets for the boiler like this.
So I traced this irrational pattern of avoiding and realized..
So I traced this irrational pattern of avoiding and realized that my already low self-esteem seems to have taken a sharp, pathological nosedive for some reason (maybe due to medication). And, well, there’s actually a good chance that someone were genuinely interested in talking to me, though it’s hard for me to accept that. But either way, everything that happened yesterday was completely irrational and unreasonable. And it honestly bothers me because all my life I’ve been very tough and had a clear understanding of my emotions, the ratio...
A few days ago, I met someone online—a guy who, from the sta..
A few days ago, I met someone online—a guy who, from the start, seemed genuinely charming. He had humor, intelligence, creativity. We started messaging, but I was too insistent, too focused on myself and what interested me rather than on him. Without really noticing, I kept pressing forward, oblivious to how it might seem. He answered regularly, even asked questions, but eventually, I felt a sharp pang of awareness that I wasn’t truly interesting to him—that he was replying mostly out of politeness.Yet, through him, I felt something delic...
When I draw with both my left and right hands, I choose an a..
When I draw with both my left and right hands, I choose an animal for the task using a random word generator. Today, I got campodea. I felt annoyed and disappointed, thinking, “What a disgusting cockroach.” I would have preferred to draw a wolf or a deer. But a task is a task. While drawing, I looked at photos of the campodea and started to feel sorry for it. This tiny living spark, almost transparent, just trying to find food and hide from predators. Such a delicate creature. And here I am, some arrogant person who decided to draw it, caus...
My father became an addict more than 15 years ago, starting ..
My father became an addict more than 15 years ago, starting with prescription drugs, as he himself is a psychiatrist specializing in addiction treatment. Then he became an alcoholic and smoked inside the house, then hit my mom and me during an alcohol- and drug-induced psychosis, cheated on her, and left to live with a new woman—someone troubled, who’d also used drugs with her former partners—all while my mom’s father was dying. As my father puts it, he felt “empty,” so he started using. This makes me sick. It’s absurd to me becau...
My new drawing with left and right hands🥺
My new drawing with left and right hands🥺
I went to see the animated movie 10 Lives. It’s a very sweet..
I went to see the animated movie 10 Lives. It’s a very sweet film for kids with a wonderful message. But there’s something that bothers me—I often notice that in animated films, couples are portrayed with the female character having a proportionate figure, a round head, and a pretty face with childlike features (tiny nose, huge eyes). Meanwhile, the male character often looks like some kind of mutant, with an eggplant-shaped nose, an odd-shaped head, a thin, crooked body, and an awkward lack of coordination. The female character is usuall...
Oh gods, I truly can’t understand how anything could be as d..
Oh gods, I truly can’t understand how anything could be as dense as my brother’s dog. She stays with me often, since my brother and his family aren’t exactly far off from her in terms of responsibility or foresight—they’re operating at about the level of a fish. But as a committed dog lover, I still can’t fathom how something like her even manages to breathe on its own and walk this earth.Her name is Risa, though she has no clue. If you call her by name, she’ll just stand there and look off in another direction. Well, in two direc...
A nighttime picnic with my friend. I’m so glad I didn’t eat ..
A nighttime picnic with my friend. I’m so glad I didn’t eat everything on the way there, like I usually do.
I absolutely love how I look in glasses! I used to need them..
I absolutely love how I look in glasses! I used to need them for my nearsightedness, but a few years ago, I had eye surgery—which I still consider one of the scariest experiences of my life. But the outcome was worth it. Some people say they’ve gotten so used to clear vision that they don’t even notice it anymore. Not me—being able to see every single leaf on the trees still feels like pure bliss.
My drawings with both left and right hand. I’m not sure if t..
My drawings with both left and right hand. I’m not sure if this one was just easier, or if my left hand has gotten a bit stronger, but it looks pretty good.
This summer in Spain, one memory still deeply troubles me. I..
This summer in Spain, one memory still deeply troubles me. Inside the church at the Poblet Monastery, I found a fledgling sparrow—overheated, injured, and in urgent need of a little help. From my experience, it only needed a few days of basic care, no more than five, to either recover or, if there were internal injuries, to pass peacefully. I approached the monks near the church entrance, asking for assistance.When I asked, I was immediately refused. I explained I could give precise instructions on what was needed—a small box, some water, a...
Today’s drawing with both hands. Why is my left hand such an..
Today’s drawing with both hands. Why is my left hand such an idiot 😭😭😭
There is no language on earth that could capture the depth o..
There is no language on earth that could capture the depth of my hatred for my university. It has no unified curriculum—each professor does whatever they please. Tests? However they want. Presentations? As they wish. Assignments? At their discretion. While one group might have a one-hour class where the professor delivers a clear, structured lecture, another group could sit through a four-hour session listening to the professor’s personal anecdotes. Some students get a multiple-choice test that the professor reviews afterward to ensure unde...
Omg literally me
Omg literally me
I’m having breakfast, and for some reason, I feel this terri..
I’m having breakfast, and for some reason, I feel this terrible weakness, as if I’m moving through milk. I find myself wondering if I’m an awful friend. I’m viciously jealous, and I openly wish all kinds of failure and misfortune upon friends who have anything better than I do. I even say this out loud—every one of my friends knows this about me. I only hold back with those who have less than me or about the same, but the second someone has even a slight edge, this deep, black envy ignites inside me. The only ones I don’t envy are t...
I came up with a new daily exercise for myself: every day, I..
I came up with a new daily exercise for myself: every day, I’ll draw a random animal and write a phrase first with my right hand and then with my left. I just finished my first attempt, and it brought such a wave of positive emotions! I didn’t have to make anything look good or criticize myself for mistakes; I just drew, messily, with both hands, and simply enjoyed the process. Drawing with my left hand was an especially amazing experience—my hand was shaky, I couldn’t control the pressure, and I kept going outside the lines. I felt lik...
