Journal entry May 7 Feeling pretty down, an “Anti Climax” d..
🕑 Added 2024-05-07 19:01:45 +0000 UTC
Journal entry May 7 Feeling pretty down, an “Anti Climax” describes it I well I guess. I may seem like a c*nt sometimes but this is my journal. I made this fight event @rumbleinthejunglemexico solely to give my fighters opportunity to fight. Because I couldn’t get the guys at my gym enough fights to stay active. I don't speak Spanish and I don’t know enough people here in the Mexico/ USA circuit or anyone willing to Fly my fighters frequently enough to keep them active. On the outside as a spectator the event looks is epic, Muay Thai and Kard Cheuk fights in a wild environment in Mexico is cool but running these shows behind the scenes is the most work I’ve ever put into something. I always self managed and got myself and Brooke fights in Thailand and around the world, even from a low level unknown pro we did this and slowly built ourselves up without help. My guys don’t have enough social skill/confidence or networking experience to do this yet. I’m trying to educate them on it but they all still rely on me. I always think about my fighters as I am a fighter and know what is best for them and want them to always have a fight on the horizon in a few weeks.. a goal, a focus, something to look forward to at the end of the day before going to sleep. As this is our life. Training Muay Thai every day then fighting/competing. So fight day on Saturday finally came and the venue and ring setup begun, it was a stressful day. 2 opponents come to weigh in, I payed there hotel and expenses and they didn’t show up to fight in the day.. some bullshi* excuse. Left me paying the opponents their salary and travel without even fighting. Bad start to the night.. Our guys got some wins and losses which was fine and then the bareknuckle fights came. This is what put the dampener on the night for me. I feel guilty and to blame for making one of my fighters fight Kard Cheuk. ( fight in Rope) when I think he didn’t really want to.. He fought his heart out and after round 1 he was badly cut and swollen face. He wanted to fight more and I said and encouraged him to continue when maybe I should have stopped it as he wouldn’t have suffered more damage that I feel responsible for.. We ended up in the hospital all night - X-rays today showed a broken jaw and arm requiring surgery. He’s really banged up.. the worst you’ve probably ever seen from a fight in bed face swollen from the broken jaw and broken arm in a cast and sling and awaiting surgery. He trusted me.. I’ve been as bad as this all punched up and cut and swollen many times on the losing end. but at least I was responsible for my own actions organising for myself. I feel for him and the fighters like they are one of my kids. Fight night ended and I had to keep going with finishing this event. Dismantling the ring. And having a bad taste in my mouth for the fights after so much stress and effort. My personal feeling in the show.. To be completely honest, I do these shows for the guys. I give myself too many duties to save money, the construction and de-construction of a boxing ring within 24 hours… take it down from the gym, up at the event, down again then up again at the gym for class on Monday… The stress of matchmaking, promoting, cancellations. making my money back on ticket and alcohol sales. If it wasn’t for Only Fans sponsorship these events wouldn’t exist. At the end of the day, fighters need to fight and we keep going even if it’s an uphill battle. It’s worth it once the hard part is over there’s always good times ahead
