Hey all! Just wanted to check in! 💕💕I hope I don’t come acro..
🕑 Added 2025-05-12 02:49:00 +0000 UTC
Hey all! Just wanted to check in! 💕💕I hope I don’t come across as mopey or complainy when I do this kind of thing… I just value transparency and communication and I like to have a connection with you all so you know I’m a real person! But if I should just leave it in the fantasy, let me know if I’m stepping over any lines 😅ANYWAY! The reality of the situation is this: I’m a little stressy-depressy right now. I’ve kept things pretty vague about my outside life, but I’ll say this: I had been cast to perform as a well known muscular himbo character and did so for many years (albeit kind of irregularly since it’s more of a special occasion character). Well, they were concerned that I was getting too wide for the costume because they were having trouble zipping it up. I got called into a fitting and disapproved from playing the character anymore. This has been a huge blow to my mental health and sending me down an existential “what am I going to do with my life” spiral. I do enjoy making content and have considered in the past focusing more on it, but now more than ever I’m really considering what I want to do with my content moving forward. I’m actually MAYBE considering making a little bit more hardcore content… 🙈 okay, okay, easy now! I said “considering!” I really much prefer erotica than hardcore porn because I love roleplay and build up, but I have somewhat considered possibly dabbling in a little bit more sexual content. I don’t know though, because I really do love the mystery of what isn’t shown and like to focus on the tension more than anything else… but I also do love porn too lol 😝 and now without this job holding me back I’d be more free to do stuff like that without worry. I think another thing that spurred this is I have had COUNTLESS big name content creators reach out to ME saying they want to collaborate. But then, of course, they realize I don’t do hardcore content and they ghost me completely. It’s disheartening and I know I shouldn’t want to associate with people who don’t respect my boundaries or my artwork… but it does make me think if I pushed my boundaries just a TINY bit more then maybe I could have some really awesome collaborations with some big names who I respect in the industry. But then again, this might just be my stressed brain talking. What do you all think? Would I be sacrificing my own integrity if I went a bit more hardcore? I mean, I would ALWAYS want to keep the roleplay element involved, but just maybe go a little further. Let me know what you think! Feel free to DM me if you’re not comfortable commenting here!
