It's easy to feel eyes watching me, to be distracted by 'who..
🕑 Added 2022-08-16 12:03:07 +0000 UTC
It's easy to feel eyes watching me, to be distracted by 'who might walk in on me'. In Hawaii, my friends were walking around and so were a handful of housekeepers and groundskeepers. Strangers at first who probably don't see almost naked women stretching in the hot sun on the daily. I'm assuming most people who stay at this fancy mansion aren't uber flexible and showing it off. LOL As you know, I'm used to stretching and making my videos in the privacy of my studio...despite the fact I'm broadcasting to thousands of people around the globe...I'm still very much alone in the room. I can relax when I feel privacy in the physical space. So to step out into the open and stretch my body on the pool deck is one step outside my comfort zone. I like it. It's fresh. It's real. I'm not ashamed or embarrased. I'm just aware that I'm not fully alone. At any moment someone might walk by and watch me, judge me, avert their uncomfortable eyes, stare harder. So the real practice for me then becomes forgetting everything out there. Is it possible for me to get so deeply focused within my own limbs, studying tiny sensations and signals from within my tissue, that my inner world consumes me and the people walking by disappear into the background? Can I control my attention and focus inside on my own pleasure and pain? Let go of everything else. Sometimes, these moments when I know I'm being observed are my most profound meditations. The pressure from outside directs my gaze with determination to my dristi, my gazing point.
