I’m just going to be an open book right now. I’m really stru..
🕑 Added 2021-08-24 22:40:00 +0000 UTC
I’m just going to be an open book right now. I’m really struggling. I enjoy what I do, I LOVE what I do — it’s always been about connecting with others playfully and authentically. The success that has come with cam over the last two years has meant that I have gotten to connect with more people and do what I love to do full time. I’ve always put a ton of pressure on myself to be better, faster, stronger, more creative and the best I can be. Showing up is the easiest part for me, it’s all the other stuff that stresses me out. Most times I feel proud of what I create, other times the stress overwhelms me and I completely break down and feel directionless. I’ve been consumed this month with reaching my goal here (which has been fun) and also figuring out how to go about this massive transition that came out of left field (not so fun). I feel ahead of the game in many ways, but I’m also totally breaking down too. A lot of people have jumped ship and I don’t blame them. I’ve slipped from my goal, but frankly I just want to celebrate that with your help, I DID make it to 1% which is a huge accomplishment especially in such short time. I’d say overall, OnlyFans has been a very positive part of my life as it’s given me an opportunity to grow and connect and share love and positive vibes. Moving forward, I have scheduled several posts here over the next week, but I have to take a break from it all for my mental health. I need to get back to sleeping at a decent time. I’m transferring to Fansly on September 1st and I’ll be doubling down on both platforms throughout September, so when I transfer completely on October 1st it should feel relatively consistent with everything that’s been happening over here. I think it’s going to look and feel much like like our experience here and I’m hopeful that things will build and grow in an organic and authentic way. I won’t be checking messages the next few days as I won’t be checking my OnlyFans, so I just ask you to please understand and enjoy my content sans my personal interaction. I’ll be back by the end of the week and we’ll definitely throw our bittersweet and sexy party on Monday for all of my incredible subscribers 🎉 PS I’m still going to try to make it on Chaturbate a few nights this week ~6:30p pacific and I’ll be sure to let you know in my stories section here 💗
