Last year’s Miami Xbiz was my first ever Xbiz. I had never b..
🕑 Added 2023-05-16 07:28:21 +0000 UTC
Last year’s Miami Xbiz was my first ever Xbiz. I had never been nominated for any awards and I didn’t know anyone really, it was at Miami Xbiz last year that I met Scarlett! In the past year I have been nominated for an Xbiz award and won it, I’ve been nominated for an AVN alongside Angela White, got myself verified on instagram and now I’m not only nominated in the Miami awards show but I’m also presenting two awards on stage to winners. Outside of work I have successfully gone sober (I’m challenging myself to 1 year and we’ll go from there), and I’ve even started playing semi-pro football for a women’s football team. Sometimes I need to give myself a shake, and remember how much I’ve achieved in the past year and look at how far I’ve come, rather than let anxiety and insecurity get the better of me. This job comes with a lot of advantages and disadvantages and unfortunately with notoriety comes a lot of nasty hate comments and online bullying with people saying disgusting things about me that aren’t true or commenting on my weight. I try not to let the hate get to me but I’m only human, and sometimes the bullies win and I feel like the most hated/ugliest person in the world. However, I have a community here, the Lana Loyal, who I am so so grateful for and I do not take for granted. I know how lucky I am to have you supporting me. Some of you have literally been subscribed to me for YEARS (yes I can see how long you’ve been here) and this makes me feel so loved and makes me feel so proud. I am trying every day to be better, to be happier, to be more productive and make this page the best it can be. I won an award for my onlyfans last year so I must be doing something right, but I’m learning a lot from my amazing friends around me and there are definitely some changes I want to make in the near future including posting more solo content (due to anxiety and insecurity I find it easier bouncing off of other people). There is always room to improve and I am always learning! This being said any suggestions or feedback you have is very welcome, after all you are paying to be here, this is YOUR space. I just want to say thank you all for being here, for your nice comments, for the votes. I’m up against some fierce competition this time so I may not win, but it’s amazing seeing you all support me by voting and it feels amazing to be nominated and asked to present awards, so really I’ve already won. I can’t believe where I am now compared to last year, and I can’t wait to see what I can do from now until next year (that was a mouthful lol) Thank you for being on the journey with me. Lana 💙🇬🇧
