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🕑 Added 2022-11-18 19:39:20 +0000 UTC
As you all know, doing amateur porn scenes is completely NEW for me.
I know my choice of "women" and being a straight man may take away from a fantasy or an allure to my large gay audience, personally, but my greatest strength in life is my radiant authenticity.
I have never done something that isn't resonant with my gut. I never compromise myself for praise or acceptance, or the opposite.
Back in 2009, when I first moved to Los Angeles, I walked in Gay Pride Parade for 5 years in a row, before it was “ cool, hip, and woke, " and all the celebrities started doing it.
The first 3 years, I got so much hate and ridicule for being ' closeted ' and ' a fag, ' by my online haters, and the haters back home.
It never made sense to me why we want to undervalue people for their sexual preference, but back then, it was common to use ' that's gay ' as a derogatory comment.
I saw a group of people who need allies, and despite the people " I knew who loved me " who supported me STOPPED because I was STANDING UP for a group that they " MISUNDERSTOOD," due to lack of education and programming by their environment. They were to emotionally-programmed (blinded) to see what I saw.
But I gained a whole new following of love, devotion, and support; my gay fans.
See, people didn't realize I got attacked, tried to be humiliated, and incessantly mocked sticking up for a group of people who were marginalized.
But then, to a part of the LGTBQ+ community, I was ' gay for pay ' because I enjoyed working in West Hollywood as a bartender, because MY patrons (gay, straight, it didn't matter) always made me feel like a billion dollars.
I could never do enough for either crowds/herds of people.
In my heart, I have never treated a gay man or a woman any differently; I give love and appreciation and gratitude for anyone's kind, nourishing, loving energy.
It's the same old adage around " financial status " and " skin color, " where I give wholeheartedly.
And now, I see this same ' harassment ' and ' misunderstandings ' around the trans community.
Even a large bulk of my gay friends ' don't understand ' transgenders.
Their opinion is just as loud, privately, as ' straight men. '
Transgender women are incredibly beautiful. Not all. Although gender identity is a completely irrelevant topic here and one that is being too politicized (and I think we are currently have too much ‘ forc ed indoctrination in certain sects of the population ‘ in forci ng sexual identity upon children—STOP!), I want to focus on SEXUAL ENERGY.
In any relationship, there is a masculine energy and a feminine energy that creates a sexual polarity. I am a very masculine man that likes very feminine energy.
If there was a trans-woman who was incredibly beautiful mentally and physically, and had the right energetic polarity, I would contemplate having a sexually-charged emotional relationship with them.
I am who I, Adonis, am. I did not pick and choose what I like or don't sexually. But I am honest with myself and who I am, and will always honor that even if it glorifies me or demonizes me.
Will this make me unpopular? Will this make me an outcast to both the matrix of rights and wrongs of our current society AND an outcast to my gay family for not " being gay, " or being " slightly gay " because I have thought about trans women, or find them to be attractive? Or because I don't find men sexually attractive?
Is there even a term for a man who is not sexually attracted to men, but sexually attracted to trans women?
But, the caveat is there has to be many things right for me to be interested in a trans-woman and not all of it I can spell out in words. There are many things that are uncontrollable about it, such as I like a high-pitched voice, I like feminine energy; I like personal development and emotional maturity.
These are MY preferences, just like I prefer short girls, fit girls, and women who are extremely feminine. Why create a narrative that this someone is a prejudice?
We NEED to stop all THINKING the same. It's so sad that 99% of my gay friends all think the same, and 99% of my entertainment friends think the same, and 99% of my friends back home think the same... WHY ARE WE ALL THINKING THE SAME? It's because you are being fed what to think constantly and you allow it; you haven't dug in the trenches of yourself and realized that if you gave up a ' belief so strong in your core, ' it's almost like you are KILLING YOURSELF. That's what beliefs feel like, and why we fight for what we believe in, because we are fighting for our very own safety in ourself, and how we view the world. If that cocoon of safety is gone, our whole world lens is obliterated. And that is scary to the common man.
What's actually committing suicide is your distrust in life.
I am never going to be what you want me to be because I am not living my life for you. I am here to serve you in other capacities, but no one will take away my WILD AUTHENTICITY.
If you guys want an honest human being who enjoys sexual exploration and liberation, and you want intimate access to that, this is what my OnlyFans platforms give.
I am beyond this social veil of all of us fucking each other, and pretending we don't to keep a clean image.
I will fuck in front of people and penetrate people on camera, and I will also penetrate people's minds and emotions deeply; I will penetrate the world just as poetically. And I will show that sexuality and spirituality and the matrix of life are all interwoven, and you have to be above the controlled matrix of right's and wrong's the world has convinced you of.
And if I lose a whole following because I want to make love to my sexual preference, I have been homless sleeping in my car to make a dream of starring in my own Syfy Original Movie. Life's tests are battle fields of growth, and I am ready for whatever fucking comes.
This is my mission, my life's journey, to wake us up, to love wholeheartedly, and live freely, vibrantly, and authentically.
In This Together,
Adonis
