Please send good vibes my way. I got X-rays today and they w..
🕑 Added 2024-10-15 17:28:11 +0000 UTC
Please send good vibes my way. I got X-rays today and they weren’t good. Tomorrow my results come in and I go see my doctor again. But I’m pretty fucked up. I’ve been in chronic pain 6-7 months now. It never stops in my hip/back. I’ve been losing it when I’m alone feeling like I’ll never not be in pain again. No ones listened, no ones fucking understood. Doctors told me this shit was in my head. Apparently I’ve been messed up long before surgery too he says because this doesn’t just happen from surgery :,) so it explains my pain before too. So far all I know is my pelvis isn’t properly aligned, my spine swoops out to it and my neck is out of place. But I could have a herniated disc apparently from what he saw in my neck 😅😞 I’m bawling in my car just praying to a god I don’t know exists that my body just stops doing shit. I’m sorry for venting guys but I feel like everytime I’m up, my body just has something else wrong with it to bring me down. I want to just be an aerialist. I want to stop having seizures, I want to feel good in my skin for once instead of constantly being in pain, I want my liver to work so I can take hormones, I just want to be better. I want my body to work. I’m trying so hard. I thought if I just worked harder the pain would go away. I guess i should just be happy I’m getting heard and SEEN instead of being told it’s in my head or “nothing is wrong”. At least i was finally told something’s wrong I guess. 😞
