Hi! Not sure how to start this, but as a few of you have pro..
🕑 Added 2021-07-23 23:32:02 +0000 UTC
Hi! Not sure how to start this, but as a few of you have probably noticed I haven’t posted in quite a while (almost a month now), let’s get into the reasons why and some things I’ve been up to !!
So, my break was for a lot of reasons, the biggest being my mental health/wellbeing —I really wanted to fully take some time to slow down and see what I actually wanted to do moving forward. This allowed me to see a LOT of things that I still need to work on, especially related to prior relationships, romantic and to myself and I’m so grateful I was in a position to be able to take that time for myself (honestly that’s because of all of you always supporting me and my content, so from every ounce of my being thank you).
Now to clarify, everything is certainly not 100% fixed or healed but I feel like I’m finally on a path moving in that direction. I felt so drained in honestly every aspect of my life, I was running on empty just trying to figure it out by being “more disciplined” or “less lazy” when really I needed to practice being more kind to my body and nervous system and mind and spirit and everything after all it’s been through, forgiving myself for not always performing perfectly has been a big theme of my life recently.
In regards to this Snapchat and my adult content in general, I was feeling really burnt out and I lost connection with the creative spark that made me fall in love with what I did. I was creating content out of guilt and feeling like I needed to “keep up” or not “fall behind” in some arbitrary point scale I created for myself. Obviously that wasn’t going to be sustainable forever, but I just kept going making more and more instead of really focusing on the quality and making sure I love each and every photo/video I put out there.
Moving forward, I’ve decided that what’s best for me is to do what truly lights my soul on fire, what feels fun, exciting, exhilarating, meaningful and purposeful in this life. That means many different things for different aspects of my life —for adult content this means that I’m going to be creating content I feel inspired by, I’ve been brainstorming so many things that feel so exciting and expansive to me and I can’t wait to share them with all of you. I plan on having a less rigorous/more sustainable schedule of posting (at least) one of these ideas every week —which feels so much better to me than trying to squeeze out content daily. I haven’t picked an official new launch day yet, but I’m planning on sometime in late July/early August, I will of course keep you updated on everything!
Other miscellaneous updates:
•anyone that bought my monthly premium Snapchat in 2021 will be automatically upgraded to lifetime (just a thank you for understanding me being gone for a bit)
•im in a relationship now!! (not the reason I stopped making content —he fully supports it)
•im still not done decorating my apartment (no one is surprised by that though lol)
•i officially started therapy (i realized that it would really be best for me to work with a professional for a while because while I tend towards downplaying ‘bad’ things and focusing on the ‘good’, some things that I’ve experienced were definitely on the higher scale of ‘bad’ and it’s more than understandable that I would need help)
•im getting ready to foster kitties in august!! (not sure how many yet but I’m very very excited)
•i recently started regularly working out/exercising again recently
•ive also been eating more than once a day the majority of the time recently (if you’re not on my private here’s some context for this —in my last relationship I lost maybe 10-15 lbs —doesn’t sound like a lot but keep in mind I’m only about 100lbs to begin with— and lost a lot of motivation to eat much of anything so this is a pretty big step towards getting back to a healthier place in life for me)
•im so so excited to start making content that’s fully in alignment with me and my inspirations!! i wasn’t originally sure if this was the right place for me anymore but I truly love doing adult content, it makes me feel free and alive and I’m just really excited for you to see what’s coming soon!
Thank all of you so much for understanding me being gone for a while, feel free to message me if you have any questions about anything I said, if I feel comfortable talking about it I’ll definitely give you more details!
Looking forward to the future with love,
Cherry
