My disability is that my knees randomly dislocate. Fully pop..
🕑 Added 2022-01-08 20:56:53 +0000 UTC
My disability is that my knees randomly dislocate. Fully pop out. It started at age 9 after a huge growth spurt and has happened over 1,000 times in my life. I had to do some snow walking to prep for my trip and when I did, my right knee went out. Which means I’m on bed rest 🙃 And I can’t film because I can’t move.
I moved my trip to January 21st-28th so I will have sun, dang it.
But mentally? I feel very washed up. I’m sad about my weight gain this year and dealing with my sickly body. I’m exhausted from it all. I also don’t get much love on Reddit anymore. Mainly, I think it’s my size but I also feel like people just want the newest girl.
These comparisons and feeling not good enough/feeling like I’ll get left in a slump are deeply tied to this last piece of trauma I need to purge. I am trying very hard to work my way around it but I just feel .. not myself.
Sorry to be such a downer lately.
PS Abott Elementary on Hulu/ABC is not a downer and I have been enjoying it immensely.
