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Chatting: Messages are BACKED UP right now. Expect a response in the next 72 hours. I am going to be focusing on tipped messages absolutely first from here on out. In four years I have had 63,000 people through my page and never used any kind of chatting service or AI. I tried getting help from a friend, but it was very short-lived. It’s always been me. I get about 100 messages a day. Especially when I respond quickly 😅 My life is going through a huge phase of transition, where I am free of the heaviest of weight of lifelong trauma and closing the book on 8 years of chronic catastrophic illness. I am still healing and have one last large hurdle but am overall better. After nearly 10 years. I am getting OUT of my head. OUT of rumination. OUT of thinking about limitations and worrying about acceptance and anxiety about being wanted. Into action. Right now, I am asking myself who I am and what I truly want. I am clearing out I would say about 95% of my stuff, focusing on making huge batches of content for here and advertising, and exploring new interests. I am learning how to play and not just survive. Not define myself by how I can be of service to others in the first time in my life. Firmer boundaries in my community circles so I am not stressed and stretched thin. I am figuring out my version of “play” is one that isn’t easily packaged or shared with other people. It’s a focus on how to help other people heal via holistic psychedelic intervention focused on brain-gut axis and vagal nerve. It’s science journals and studies and Indigenous literature and other non-fiction books whose concepts make most of my friends black out. It’s long walks to contemplate these things. It’s doing art that I don’t care to show off. I was into comics for decades. I was into sci-fi for decades. Into odd genres of music and activist organized politics and sports and rare exotic plants and all kinds of shit. I had a lot of fun, but I am really disconnected from it all now. Maybe I’ll pick it back up. I will always love Star Trek and indie comics Also a tad stressed about watching capitalism, fascism and dehumanization destroy the world. I am socially kiiiiiind of odd right now and feeling so incredibly Autistic. Mask off. I don’t really know how to explain it. The “sales” voice and “fun” voice in me are gone. I haven’t been keeping up on any shows or anything. I am bad at idle chit-chat right now. My many apologies. Please enjoy my porn lol If you don’t want *just* porn, a tip goes a long way. I know I have been slacking. OnlyFans is such an oddity in how much it peddles intimacy but commodification bogs down true intimacy. Not the kind from an AI chatter calling you “babe” and “sweetie” for no real reason. THANK YOU ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
