It’s been really hard to function lately. I’ve been really d..
🕑 Added 2021-12-31 01:04:04 +0000 UTC
It’s been really hard to function lately. I’ve been really depressed and there are times when I’m depressed and can still function but I’ve just been so emotionally and physically drained; it’s been hard to find a reason to get out of bed every day let alone film content that makes me so happy and turned on. And of course each thing affects the other; doing less videos and engaging less means less interaction and less feelings of happiness and validation and joy I usually get from devoting myself to this lifestyle as much as possible and sharing it within the community. And less content of course also means less money. And money, being the center of how we survive, is a huge source of stress in most peoples lives. Depression->not doing things I enjoy->loss of income-> stress->shut down-> depression …and the cycle repeats. It all feeeeds into each other no pun intended lol. I hope everyone who’s still here with me now and reading this is at a safe and happy point in their lives! And I’m sorry for being sparse with the posts. I know I’ve had these problems before and I’m sorry I can’t be my best 12 months out of every year. I wish I could!! But the struggles are lifelong battles and I don’t see these cycles of depression as necessarily a failure anymore; just more of a thing I have to get through. A wave I have to ride. And I’ll come out okay on the other side soon. I always have so far! Thanks for reading.
