If you only knew how much work it is to keep providing high ..
🕑 Added 2024-07-02 16:05:41 +0000 UTC
If you only knew how much work it is to keep providing high quality content that literally has me turning myself inside out to share every part of myself with you. All for $10 a month. And it still isn’t enough. Unless I discount my page to basically free I wake up on days like today and have lost 100 subscribers basically overnight. Why actually support my work if you can just jack off to my content on Twitter? But if I pull back and don’t offer everything so generously I’m considered a scammer and a tease? I don’t get it. Tempted to pack it all up. I barely can pay my rent each month and I just had to put my dog down cuz I couldn’t afford his vet bills. How much more must I give? When will I finally catch some sort of break? My content is shadow banned on virtually every platform, I have to work 10x as hard as the next cute lil white boy, and this just isn’t fun anymore. I’m tired of being everyone’s best kept secret. I’m tired of struggling for something that has little meaning. I just wanna connect with spirit. I just wanna experience actual intimacy and authenticity. I wanna be free. Big moody and melancholic energy in the air today. I’m letting it move through me. I’m being honest with what I’m feeling. Many of you are kind and supportive. And I appreciate you. I seldom vent or share my struggles. Today is one of those days. Send love and kind words please. I need some encouragement to keep going 😔
