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🕑 Added 2022-06-20 19:32:52 +0000 UTC
❤️**PLEASE READ - ALL COMMENTS OR LIKES WILL GET A TREAT**❤️
EDIT: AHHH THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING SO AMAZING AND TIPPING ALREADY, you make me want to sob but in a happy way 😭 But please wait for the fund post so it can be easier to find everyone to send the extra content to! Again I super appreciate y’all and I can’t stop crying today so pls don’t think I don’t appreciate you so much 😭💕
It is so nice to have some laughter after this really rough month I’ve had, and I honestly couldn’t keep it all to myself. I haven’t made anything public as of yet because I’m not normally one to share my personal life online, but I feel like I owe y’all an explanation as to why I’ve been less active, especially with sets.
As you know, last month I went to visit my best friend to help them through a really rough period and mental health crisis, then returned and got really sick with an unknown thing. I lost my voice and was unable to make content from the pain and well, no one wants to jerk off to someone who sounded like a mouse, haha! Then, I traveled for a collab which, well, went not the way we expected it to and ended up not getting the collab videos, but I did get some amazing content from it regardless! But of course, the day I came back I felt sick again, and realized I had a lump on my neck that wasn’t there before, along with a horrible stomach virus that gripped me by the balls for another week, making it impossible to shoot. I don’t have insurance, so I have to pay for doctor’s appointments out of pocket, which ate up my savings and set budget, on top of not being able to produce content. After seeing two doctors, and multiple conversations with other doctors (just over the phone), I found out that I what might be going on with me (constant exhaustion, pain, lump in neck, other signs) could be..well, a bigger deal than I thought. Think the C word. Fingers crossed it isn’t, but I honestly won’t know until I’m approved for insurance ASAP, and even then I won’t know until this Friday. I was told I could be denied instantly if they pull up my medication history because since I take a certain prescription, no private insurance will take me if they knew, and marketplace insurance will make me wait two months I don’t have to get a diagnosis. If I DO get approved, I have to pay $400 upfront before I can even see a doctor, something I don’t really have after these horrid month and illness after illness. So it’s kinda of a duel ended sword at this point haha..
All of this is to say that I really regret not keeping y’all updated more, because now im genuinely worried and also just, well, scared, honestly. I don’t have many people in my life I can talk to about this, but y’all have shown me time and time again that no matter what, you’re here for me, and for that I can’t stop crying from happiness and security. This feels so lonely, but everytime I log onto here and see y’all’s DMS checking up on me, it makes me feel a little better 💕
So I have an idea! This is just a snippet of the full blooper reel, but I wanted to do sort of a fund raiser style where if you tip $10, I’ll send the full, uncensored video to you, and you’ll get a discount on my first professional scene! I wanted to do something more fun to keep the mood up, and also make sure you guys are covered for being so amazingly sweet to me. The fund just covers the insurance payment (it came at a horrible time), but (and pls don’t feel obligated to!) if we make over the goal, EVERYONE will get a special treat from me because I honestly don’t have words for how thankful I am to y’all. I’ve also never had enough content BTS to capture a true blooper reel, so I’m actually pretty excited to show off more of what goes into making these sexy videos for y’all (answer: a lot of cute but also ugly laughter from me)
Please don’t feel obligated to tip! Just a like or comment to boost the post will mean the world to me, and again pls don’t worry! I don’t have any confirmation yet, but this will help me be able to get the help I need for it so I really appreciate if you do. I never really ask for help because I’ve been made to learn that doing so is an instant shitty guilty feeling, but hearing from y’all helps me feel less terrible and understand that it’s okay to ask for help 💕
Ily guys. Thank you for everything.
Love, your favorite bunny
