You all wouldn't believe the kind of day I have had. There's..
🕑 Added 2024-12-24 09:01:41 +0000 UTC
You all wouldn't believe the kind of day I have had. There's a lot I don't post on social media because I struggle to reply to the obscene amount of messages that I get. But it's hard keeping a lot of my struggles to myself all the time. Today my dad called me to help de-escalate a situation at home with my brother, who is schizophrenic and was staring at the sun for hours. It's a thing he does when he goes off his medication, he seems to find the burning of his retinas to be very calming. Unfortunately, the police and ambulance had to be involved to get him to go to the hospital because he wouldn't voluntarily just go. I spent an hour trying to block his eyesight from the sun so he could stop burning himself. He wouldn't agree to go, after crying & begging him for a good hour, so he was escorted by police. Yay, new trauma unlocked 🫠He's my older brother, but I'm always being called in to take care of him. It's exhausting, hurtful and painful to see him like this - especially because this has been my reality for over 8 years now. I never get a call from my dad for good news, only ever bad news. It's Christmas tomorrow, and I'll be spending some of my day in the hospital with my brother. There's so much grief and unspoken mental illness in my family. My life is great and dandy, until I consider my family. It's been pretty hellish for quite some time, and I don't know what to do about it. I don't even know why I'm telling you all. I think all I see is positive Christmas posts and the Grinch in me always ends up feeling sick of it all. Christmas was a huge thing in my family, so I know my brother's health went down hill because of the season & the recent anniversary of my mum's death.So that's my day. If I haven't replied to any messages lately, I'm just going through it. December is always a bad time for me. I hope you're having a good holiday season. Hold onto the people you love tight.
