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Reminiscing about when I moved into my apartment a year ago ..
🕑 Added 2023-09-20 01:39:07 +0000 UTC Reminiscing about when I moved into my apartment a year ago and had no furniture. I remember toying with the idea of keeping it that way, and taking these photos. I have this internal dynamic where I look back on photos of myself in previous months and years with great nostalgia and longing, as if I would prefer to be where I was, as if it was better than where I am now. Because it’s a long standing dynamic, I recognize it now when I look at photos I’ve just taken, and I wonder why I often don’t have that same appreciation for moments/seasons of life while they’re happening. So I’m going to do my best to sink into autumn this year. It’s a truly magical time of year, and also my BIRTHDAY, so you’ll be hearing about that as well. But mostly I’m going to do my best to truly rest, as the past few weeks has taught me is necessary. Rest ties into this because I am seeing that true rest lies in the present moment. Not being caught up in things that have happened, or things that may/may not happen in the future. Resting involves setting all that aside and observing what is in front of me and within me RIGHT NOW. So I’m going to put a sincere effort into finding that place. It’s also so easy to justify rest as a means of being more productive later. And I’m soooo tempted to use that as my motivation to rest. But then, am I truly resting if it is for some end game that has nothing at all to do with resting…???!!!!!! Thank you for hearing me. I hope you get to truly rest today, even if only for a few minutes.
