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**Needing some motivation.** Tips and people checking out m..
🕑 Added 2023-11-03 13:52:48 +0000 UTC **Needing some motivation.** Tips and people checking out my pay to view content cheer me on. I also do have an Amazon wishlist which helps with the smiles and motivation (https://www.amazon.com/hz/wis…). I have a chance to do a photoshoot Sunday, but I don’t know … I know I should for the sake of content, but I can’t decide what direction to go in. Feeling a little stuck. Though I am a paid and published model (feels so strange to say that) I don’t sell content that photographers pay me to do - there’s contracts and rules. All the pay to view sets I make I reach out to my photographer friends for assistance, but all concepts come from my own brain and a lot of the set up does too! And it is hard. Being creative is rewarding, but still difficult. I am proud to say when I hype a shoot and say how much I absolutely love it that I am being 100% honest. I have so much passion for what I do and when things fall into place and my vision comes through I am over the moon!!!! Also, some shoots make me feel SO beautiful and it brings me such great self esteem. But sometimes I hit a wall when it comes to deciding my next project. The problem is cosplay as a business. I have to determine cost of materials VS. the probability of success. It’s so limiting as I know my ideas can be niche and, though they bring me so much joy, I have to determine if I can budget in a passion project that won’t likely garner any earnings. HOWEVER, I also want my projects that will have a higher chance for earnings to truly be creative and smart even if they are more obvious to a wider audience. I want every single look I produce to be something I love and can stand behind. Y’all, my brain functions like this ALL. THE. TIME. I am just a small ball of chronic anxiety 😂. Anyway, make sure to check out my existing sets to help me fund future sets!!!! The anxiety I have is because I care SO much. I love my fandoms and the looks I create. Every look is a love letter to the source content or just an expression of myself and learning to love myself. I am a nerd! I love being a nerd and I love being able to wave my nerd flag proudly! When you purchase sets you, yes, help with bills and expenses, but help keep the cosplay and fantasy dreams alive! I appreciate you all for reading my rambling anxiety attack. 😂
