***VIDEO: First anal training session*** | *1 video*
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***VIDEO: First anal training session*** | *1 video*
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Nothing makes me cum more intensely or more quickly than having my asshole played with 🤤... This created some dilemmas for a girl growing up in a Muslim household where anal was considered VERY sinful 😳
If you want to read more about my relationship with my extremely pleasure-sensitive asshole, and the personal significance of this video, scroll down for the full story 🥰.
**Length:** 11:43
**Features:** Anal Orgasms (lots of them 😩) • Anal Training • Anal Fingering • Butt Plugs (I try 4 different ones 😇)
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Discovering my asshole as a source of pleasure was one of my first sexual awakenings. As a Muslim, extramarital sex is of course strictly forbidden, but anal is doubly forbidden because it's not even allowed within marriage. I'd furtively explore it at home, biting my pillow as I was overcome with intense pleasure all through my body as my finger slipped deep into my tight little butthole. Once I'd satisfied my aching desire to feel that deliciously naughty and intensely euphoric sensation of feeling something penetrate my forbidden little hole, a wave of deep shame would wash over me. And every time, I'd swear to myself that I would never do it again, and pray frantically, fearing that I was damned for my sinful lack of inhibition. But even when I genuinely believed I was risking damnation, I failed to resist the overwhelming urge several times.
There was just something overpoweringly intoxicating about the act of slipping my underwear off under the covers, flipping onto my front, and slowly rubbing my little asshole with a saliva-lathered finger. When I finally pressed my finger into my ass, I'd cum pretty much *immediately*. I'd cum so hard that I had to bite my pillow so as not to make any noise; I didn't dare risk my parents hearing. After a few intense orgasms, I'd lie there completely exhausted, my bedsheets soaked with stringy-gooey pussy juice that literally seemed to pour out of me when I played with my ass. To this day, nothing gets me anywhere near as wet as anal stimulation does. I was a very naughty Muslim girl.
That internalised Islamic taboos around anal have been a deep source of shame for me—shame that hasn't been easy to conquer. When I started rediscovering anal pleasure after leaving home last year, I realised I was kind of scared of it. At first I thought it was the possibility that it would hurt; I have a ridiculously small asshole, so it takes a lot of warm-up and training to fit anything more than a finger in there. But slowly I realised that what I really feared was the pleasure; it was so intense, so primal, a kind of pleasure that made me lose control more than any other sexual activity.
As is probably obvious to you, I've always loved being a sexual performer, and I **love** making men cum 🤤. Right from when I first started having BG sex (at 18), I knew that I enjoyed the role of seductress. Watching men in ecstasy as I suck and ride until their balls are empty is literally my happy place; *nothing* is more fun to me. Although I'm a submissive at heart, I always indulged what I guess you could call the "servitude" aspect: I'm filled with thirst at the idea of my being duty-bound to drain your balls whenever you need it (just writing this has already soaked my underwear through 😩). The other side to submissiveness is less like servitude and more associated with being *used* 🤤. This second kind of submissiveness—the desire to be a fleshlight, to be used at a Master's discretion, to be a degraded bimbo cumslut—is just as powerful for me, but carries, I think, a greater burden of the sexual shame that was instilled in me growing up. Muslim girls are always taught about how a key role (usually *the* key role) in your life is to serve your husband well. I convinced myself (not entirely wrongly) that spending hours secretly watching porn to improve my blowjob technique could be considered part of my effort to learn to be a good wife someday. But the other submissive aspect, the desire to be an object to be filled with cum however or whenever a man wants, was more clearly sinful according to Islamic beliefs. As I got older I became skeptical of Islam as a religion (although I still believed in God), and realised that all of these religious dictates are flush with hypocrisy, cruelty, and contradiction. But even though I *rationally* understood that these rules didn't make sense, it was very hard to shake the deeper *feeling* within me surrounding the notion of that second form of submission—the submission not only as a servant, but as a body to be used.
The guilt I've felt about my aching desire to feel a cock in my little pussy is nowhere near as strong as the guilt I've felt for the desire for having anal sex. Islam recognises regular (vaginal) sex as a beautiful and natural thing—it just restricts it to within marriage. I knew that, even as a Muslim, the urge wasn't wrong or unnatural. Islam understand that people have sexual urges, and a big part of every Muslim's day-to-day holy struggle (your personal *jihad*) is keeping those urges in check. Anal sex, on the other hand, is forbidden under any circumstances. Islam considers anal sex deeply immoral and unnatural, recognising no place for it in a good person's life. To find anal stimulation pleasurable implies that you are failing to ward off the corrupting forces of Shaitan (Satan), or possessed by an evil *jinn* (a diabolical spirit). There was a time when I really believed in Islam, and I tried my best to be a good Muslim. You can imagine, then, how difficult it was for me to struggle with these incredibly powerful urges, and how scary it was to feel like my failure to reign them in would lead me to eternal damnation.
Now, after realising I couldn't stay in that oppressive Muslim community (often with cruel people who sought to control and hurt me at every turn), after finally building up the courage to get away and live my own life, things are so different. I'm still working through some of those feelings of shame—feelings I know in my rational mind are based in fear and hypocrisy—but they are far weaker than they were all those months ago.
All the encouragement, support, and lovely compliments I get about my asshole have really helped me work through that deeply ingrained taboo. Thanks to all of you, I'm now learning to embrace the pleasure of anal play and to understand that it's not only natural but absolutely incredibly (maybe even better than regular sex) 🤤
I'm still an anal virgin in the sense that I've not yet had a dick enter my tiny little asshole 🥺, but my mind *CRAVES* the day I get to feel a real cock in my asshole, to feel my forbidden hole stretched tightly around that cock and milking out the semen that's rightfully mine, driving deep inside me, to have my asshole filled with an ungodly-large load of thick cum, to feel jets of cum repainting my colon as my fresh lil 19-year-old ass tightens around your cock as I cum uncontrollably, moaning like the little anal whore I am, my back arched deeply in absolute submission, my school skirt still on, my ponytail in the firm commanding grip of my White master's clenched fist, repeating loudly in-between yelps "Thank you, Daddy!" again and again 🤤🤤🤤
I even love thinking about the moments after my ass has been creamed... Maybe I'll find a mirror to watch the huge load flow out of my ass, catching it with my fingers and rubbing it all over my clit, begging for load #2 😋 Maybe I'll casually ping my slutty little thong back on, pull my skirt backdown (it barely covered my ass anyway), and bounding off to class after taking a little mid-morning creampie break, knowing I'll be leaking all day and secretly hoping people see 😍 Maybe I'll stay bent over right after you've unloaded, knowing that even though I've gotten my reward—an ass full of your delicious seed—I dutifully and excitedly wait for you to put a nice big plug in my ass as I can carry your load all day, soaking every lecture chair as the plug moves every time I move in my seat 🤤 Plus, as a girl who doesn't take birth control (ooops 🥺), it allows me to be a little more... spontaneous 😈 I imagine it going something like this: "I'm sorry; we just met. I'm not on birth control, and I don't know what your pull-out game is like. You can use in my ass though :)"...
I'm still working through the last shreds of guilt, because I want to make sure I'm able to fully enjoy my first time—without any guilt weighing me down. But I know my anal cherry 🍒 isn't going to last long 🥰. I have a feeling that I might be an "anal girl" 🥴 It's still kind of scary to imagine how intense the pleasure will be, and I'm still a little scared of that level of submission (even though I crave it at the same time). But increasingly I'm realising that the fear is kind of part of the pleasure, and I just need to learn to recognise the distinction between the thrilling fear of submission before those who just want to see me experience intense pleasure (my incredible subs 🥰), and the insidious, toxic fear that I felt so often back at home.
Hence why I'm so so excited (and stupidly horny) about sharing this video with you. There's something almost hot about feeling a bit of shame but being overpowered by pleasure, that's kind of where I am now. Oh, and don't worry, I had *so so soooo much fun* making this video 🤤
If you think the above is just a sexy story to get you horny, watch the full video: you'll see how hard (and how fast) I cum from anal stimulation 🤤🤤🤤 If you're an anal guy (like I'm an anal girl), I promise you won't regret it 😏
