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🕑 Added 2020-02-17 19:12:55 +0000 UTC Gooood meowrning ^~^ Posting more from this set + another dance tease later today! I love love L O V E waking up early (Here comes the rant I wanted to post a few nights ago, haha) I usually keep this shit to myself (Or twitter threads lolol) because I’m here to be sexy and sassy but I’d really love to be able to blog here too, it’s been cathartic for me since I was 11/12, all the way back to the neopet roleplay board days 🤣 Anyway, I was really struggling the past few weeks and felt almost glued to my bed, sleeping 12-14 hours at a time and by the time I’d be up the day would be almost over and it made me feel so hopeless. I’d stay up 24 hours to reset my sleep schedule and still fuck it up, my body refused to get up. I think it was a depressive episode combined with my med timing + my circadian rhythm being off from never seeing the sun...winters suck so bad in Washington. But then one day I got up, I tapered my anti-depressant down to 5 mg and took it during the day instead of the night, I hopped right into exercising again and meditating every night plus listening to a video to help me sleep instead of taking a sleep aid (It’s this one, I HAVE to share because I seriously love it so much and maybe you will too :’3 https://youtu.be/4Cvn7U1QGsk) And I’ve been waking up at 8-10 am almost every day since. I have coffee with my meds so I don’t feel sleepy during the day and I do my best to get outside even just to drive to Starbucks or take my pup for a good walk. Sometimes the best solutions are the simplest ones. I couldn’t even stand to look at myself because of med-related weight gain and the stress of not feeling good enough to even be worth an onlyfans sub. Just being able to get UP and actually feel ALIVE has improved my self confidence drastically and almost immediately, coupled with the support from you guys...it just feels so damn good. I feel great at this stage and am using all my energy to play catch up and prepare myself to move to a new city in March, unfortunately it’s kind of like preparing for another episode...but I try not to think about that or fear it coming again. I start a new medication soon that’s supposed to help, basically gives you the kick in the pants that you need when you struggle with executive dysfunction/adhd/depression. It should help me avoid falling into those pits that seem to suck me in like clockwork. I wish I could do it on my own and all naturally but I just don’t think I get the most out of my life that way. I feel like I’ve spent so long struggling, it’s nice to have a chemical that helps me *coast* a little, you know? I hope you don’t know, tbh, if you’re doing okay I hope you take full advantage and seize the day, my friend. I hope you’re well and I hope I can maintain my wellness too. I have more to say but I’ve gone on long enough, I’ll save it for another time :’3 Thank you for listening💗
