Also, to put the heavier shit aside for a moment- i feel it’..
🕑 Added 2022-03-01 21:30:49 +0000 UTC
Also, to put the heavier shit aside for a moment- i feel it’s time for a life update. I’ve been doing much much better than I thought possible. My physical health has been deteriorating but, ya know… shit happens and I’m stubborn. I went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with POTS- postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome. Which basically means my heart has trouble properly supplying my body with b l o o d. For me, it means I have days where I can barely get out of bed because when I get up I get dizzy and weak and have trouble breathing. Idk I always thought I was just weak and should be able to do the things everybody else can… I thought I was just lazy and often beat myself up about it or chalked it up to depression. So I guess in a way it’s nice to know that there really is something physically wrong, that it’s not just… me. Sounds discouraging, I know. But the silver lining is that now that I FINALLY know what’s been wrong with me, I can put measures in place to make myself feel a little better- and we’re trying to find what’s causing it, so I’ll keep you updated if we figure it out. Maybe it’s fixable 🥰 Ok bad news over. GOOD NEWS GUYS… I’ve enrolled in classes for the spring / summer. Im taking primarily business-related classes, to help me with the craft business I just started. I’m actually learning how to use design software (AutoCAD) to create more legitimate / high quality products. I think I’m really onto something here, but what I’m making isn’t out or available yet, so I can’t share much about the specific product. I’m not getting a full degree, because I firmly believe that it’s fucking ridiculous to pay tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars for a piece of paper that an employer wants to see to consider hiring me- I don’t intend on being an employee. But I’m definitely in this for the knowledge, which I think is what education should be at its core- and I value that very highly. Thanks for sticking around always. Posts will continue to improve in frequency and quality now that I’ve gotten into somewhat of a routine 🥰 new content will be released (at least) weekly. ❤️
