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🕑 Added 2020-04-02 01:18:59 +0000 UTC ๐๐๐ ONLYFANS ๐๐๐ FULL Blog Post! (couldn't fit on Insta) ๐ โญ๏ธ I love my body โญ๏ธ ๐ ...(Well, some times... and other times I feel incredibly insecure and seek outside validation to know that I am accepted by the masses to โaccuratelyโ identify my self worth. ๐คข ๐คฎ ))... And I love this photo! ๐ Why? Well this photo makes me feel sexy, attractive, strong, that I have a pretty alright body, and OH I LOVE nature! And feeling free in nature! ๐ But I know many people out there would SHAME ME for this photo. I know many people out there would shame me for FAR LESS than this... Why shouldnโt I love this photo? ๐ Well the person who took it would eventually restrain me, beat me, and r๐pe me in this very same vanโฆ I did not see that coming. So maybe I should burn this photo and never look back... ? ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ Controlling people in my life have often left me feeling like: โญ๏ธ โI am NEVER ENOUGH, or I am TOO MUCHโ โญ๏ธ I am not sexy enough, or I am too sexy. (thus people will matsurbate to this so I shouldn't post itโฆ I've been told that) (oh and no one will love me) I am not cute enough, or I am too cute. (no one will love me) I am not strong enough, or I am too strong. (Apparently if I get too strong I will look like a man and nobody will love me...) PLEASE leave a comment if you have ever been left feeling like this!! Because I don't think anyone deserves that. ๐๐ But all of this applies to my Insta pageโฆ people trying to control me. โ But this is my life, this is my body, and regardless of what I went through I am PROUD of how far I have come, I am PROUD of the me in the photo and I am PROUD of the me now who got the hell out and kept going and still keeps trying. ๐ช๐ฌ NAKED In the PAST every time I have posted me doing something naked or siminaked (even just shorts and pasties) Doing activities like highlining, slacklining, handstand, and acro, there is always someone very dear to me who has something very negative to say about it. First a battle in my brain ๐ง and then arguments with loved ones ๐ about what โI am and am not allowed to post on social mediaโ Tears comence Feelings: like I am the most pathetic thing ever, or like itโs my job in life to just hide under a rock until someone tells me Iโm allowed to come out. ๐ ๐ On one hand I totally understand trying to โprotect meโ. ๐ค On the other hand I want to scream out and cry โTHIS IS MY BODY AND I CAN DO WHAT I WANT WITH IT,โ especially to do a handstand on a rock in a national park naked ๐ณ is that really so bad??? I used to have dreams that maybe I would get picked up for being an athlete one day. I know tons of companies want a squeaky clean profile and a naked handstand with a beautiful nature backdrop just doesnโt cut it. So like right now in the back of my head is the fear โOH NO, I can never be on American Ninja Warrior if I make this post!!! I am potentially ruining my career!!!โ Well, first off, what career? I don't have a career. I am not a sponsored athlete and I probably never will be, and I can't just wait around for that day to come. BUT all of that being said I LOVE CREATING CONTENT I love teaching and I love sharing with all of you! And I want to keep creating and making more and more! sooooooooooo... ๐๐๐ONLYFANS๐๐๐ SO to help me share my knowledge, my movement practices, and some โobjectivelyโ cute photos of myself kinda like the one above. I have just created an ONLYFANS account to share these things and for it to be more cost effective for me to do that. I want to share what I have been shamed for but what I am proud of! People who subscribe will get EXCLUSIVE content on the platform that you will not be able to find on any of my other platforms! Examples are: weekly warm up routines, yoga practice, splits practice, stretching, rolling around on balls, and much more! โญ๏ธโญ๏ธ๐ TIP PLEASE if you support this ๐โญ๏ธโญ๏ธ Every subscription helps me to generate more content for you! So thank you so much! ๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป Second disclaimer: this photo was taken by my ex abuser/boyfriend. He will probably report it and it will probably get taken down. So shhh ๐คซ donโt let him know. ๐คโบ๏ธ๐ฅฐ๐๐๐๐๐๐
