Good morning everyone
This is take 2🎬 wish me luck
I owe a ..
🕑 Added 2021-10-27 17:20:15 +0000 UTC
Good morning everyone
This is take 2🎬 wish me luck
I owe a lot of you an explaination. At least as to why I can't seem to keep my promises.
The situation, the hole I am digging here in my reality, is not something someone just... talks about...
I'm aware what may happen by sharing, especially so publicly... I said it from the start that this spot on the internet is for me. This is my page and if my bs is something you don't want to read, then please don't. I'm not twisting your arm. I do this for my sanity... if there is anything left.
My gut keeps telling me to start recording, to start checking in with people, to keep proof... if I don't that would truly be the stupidest thing I've ever done... or not done?🤔
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This post is nowhere near what I had written last night, guys... I'm sorry.
Raw emotions are gone, I am left a shell. I don't know what to say... My walls have been rebuilt; chains and traps are at the ready; my heart is frozen, crystalized, and guarded once more...
Unfortunately, I do not have the passion I did last night to save myself and spit some truth... and this is why people like myself get manipulated and taken advantage of. We do not hold ourselves in high regards. We seek to please, we seek your attention and acknowledgement, we seek to make others happy even when it means destroying ourselves...
This world we live in breeds so much anger and selfishness and ignorance. We are products of our environment... I am a rabbit living in a wolf based world... And no matter how hard I try I just... I can't compete with the wolf...
Even if the wolf had pity in me... It's only a matter of time before starvation takes hold and I am eaten...
