I take shooting so seriously and I made plans with a someone..
🕑 Added 2023-04-23 22:46:19 +0000 UTC
I take shooting so seriously and I made plans with a someone who was a novice who kind of backed out or got intimidated or something idk. My time is valuable and so am I. I am still kind of disappointed especially as I take making promises to my fans seriously. Call me emotional but I actually cried before because I felt like my content wasn't good enough or I had people who believed in me or hard-core fans that didn't see what they wanted. I have this desire to please people and I never started shooting for money but Because i wanted to be seen heard amd connect with people and be somebody. putting myself out there to make content with a newbie when I'm at a more experienced level , making a promise to my fans being an introvert but willing to see someone, pay for the room the equipment the lighting getting so excited to shoot just to be told it wouldn't be that great but any content is better than none. No that's not true. You have to feel good about what you are shooting. I don't have time to waste, making plans for a shoot is seriously. I know my worth. In the past I didn't which got in the way of shooting. Now I'm ready to shoot and know my worth. If you aren't stoked to shoot with me don't do it. So yeah. Still processing that. I take things so seriously but it's what males me thoughtful and stand out. I even bought outfits for the person. I know models flake a LOT so nothing new.
