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Good morning guys! take it all off and strike a pose, my fav..
Good morning guys! take it all off and strike a pose, my favorite kind of photo shoot ๐๐ธ๐ผGoing through my early posts here, I found this series and realized that I had only posted one or two of the pictures at the time. So I took a moment to edit them again for you โบ๏ธYesterday I started my third chemo cycle with the first day consisting of a 4 hour long IV session and also the 8 daily pills. Now it's 13 more days of pills until the one week break. So far it's going well, fingers crossed ๐๐ปNow I have to think of someth...
Good morning guys, today is my third anniversary here! ๐๐๐ผCa..
Good morning guys, today is my third anniversary here! ๐๐๐ผCan you believe it? three years since Patreon suddenly decided to almost kick me out and I was "compelled" to open this profile.It's been an incredible journey for me on many levels, with your continued support I've been able to keep making music, release three albums and even a vinyl! You can't imagine how much this means to me. Thank you โค๏ธOn a personal level, this journey of exploration has allowed me to discover things I never thought I would try and ...
And here's a little extra, 5 pics from the studio this morni..
And here's a little extra, 5 pics from the studio this morning โบ๏ธBearhugs โค๏ธ
Hello stranger... what are you up to? ๐๐๐Here are three more..
Hello stranger... what are you up to? ๐๐๐Here are three more pics from this "lost" photo shoot from last February.Sorry for the silence the last days, I finished the second chemo cycle and felt more tired than expected, so I was mostly resting and taking it easy.I was also a little disappointed because another idiot is creating profiles and sharing pictures from here, misleading and scamming people. The problem is that Facebook, Telegram and others don't care about such things, but I find it sad that someone would do this t...
Hey guys! I was thinking about a request one of you made her..
Hey guys! I was thinking about a request one of you made here yesterday and remembered this set of photos. We took so many pictures that only a few were posted back in February, so here they go, again a selection of photos that I hope will satisfy the request, many of them new โบ๏ธToday is my second day off from chemo and it feels great, I'm getting back to myself, with more energy and ready to sing another song, which I plan to do as soon as I finish this post โบ๏ธI'll let you know how it went soon, until then have a wonderful Thur...
Good morning guys! How about a nice release? it's about time..
Good morning guys! How about a nice release? it's about time.... ๐๐ฆ๐I made this video for you yesterday. If I'm not mistaken, it's the first of its kind since all this unrest started in June. You can tell I was a little insecure, not sure if I was going to be able to make it... but I did ๐.Small victories guys, everything in this life can be achieved if you face it guerilla style ๐.And today I'm finishing my second chemo cycle, so it's a double celebration (and release) ๐ Have a nice Tuesday โค๏ธ
Good morning guys! Fresh from the shower, new pictures! Wow,..
Good morning guys! Fresh from the shower, new pictures! Wow, it's been a while ๐ ๐I just took these pics for you, and a video coming tomorrow. Felt it was time to start let myself be seen as you're used to. I've been feeling a bit insecure lately because of the scars (I didn't retouch the photos, I just took angles that disguise them ๐), the weight fluctuations and loss of muscle tone, but I'm determined to start exercising this week and finish all this chemo rollercoaster even healthier than before.Also, I finished ...
Good morning everyone! It's boxer appreciation day, so let's..
Good morning everyone! It's boxer appreciation day, so let's start by helping me take them off ๐Here's another newly edited gallery from the "power suit" photo shoot, with pictures you haven't seen before โบ๏ธThings went well the last two days, no pain, though still with limited energy, which is why I didn't post yesterday, I wanted to record vocals for one of the new songs and it was one thing or the other. This second cycle is almost done and I'm hoping that with all we've learned so far, the third wil...
Hey you, wanna help me with this? ๐Hope your day is going we..
Hey you, wanna help me with this? ๐Hope your day is going well โค๏ธ
Good morning everyone! Let's get crazy, today is a two post ..
Good morning everyone! Let's get crazy, today is a two post day ๐ I want to get out of this suit as soon as possible ๐This is part three of this series. I posted a more edited version of the last one on social media yesterday (I added a different background), and although there's a 4th part that's slowly revealing the goods, today I'm going to jump right in and post the first of the NSFW galleries from this photoshoot in two hours, most of the photos for the first time since I was finally able to develop the negatives that...
Hey guys! Let's go back to where we were ๐คช who's going to he..
Hey guys! Let's go back to where we were ๐คช who's going to help me out of this suit?Here's the second batch of freshly edited images from the 2022 photoshoot. Most of them will be new to you as I haven't been able to get them properly developed yet.After a few rough days, the sun seems to be out again and I'm feeling a little better. At least I can post here. I have some stuff to edit for you, hopefully it'll be up tomorrow. Until then have a nice Tuesday ๐ โค๏ธ
Hey guys! How about we put on a suit and start taking it off..
Hey guys! How about we put on a suit and start taking it off slowly? ๐คชI've finally been able to remaster and polish this photoshoot we did in 2022. I've been trying to use more of this set for ages, but the original pictures had light, noise and temperature issues, so only a few could be saved, and I could actually only use one of the books (the noe version of All Systems Go features it). Now I'm working on a few every day and will share them as they come. Can't wait to see how the NSFW turns out ๐คช๐Yesterday was a bit o...
Hey guys! Get ready for a long and playful edging session, I..
Hey guys! Get ready for a long and playful edging session, I'm bringing my toys ๐คช๐It took me forever to edit this video yesterday, but I think it was worth it. It's another one of those videos that OF decided to take down because about a year ago someone was stealing my content and posting it elsewhere. I hope everyone will be more respectful now so this stays ๐๐ปThe second chemo cycle is going better than the first overall, but I'm still dealing with stomach ulcer pain. I'm hoping the doctors will find something that...
Good morning guys, it's #throwbackthursday ๐ so here's the u..
Good morning guys, it's #throwbackthursday ๐ so here's the uncensored version of my post on social yesterday + 2 extra pics and one without the FX I don't think I shared before โบ๏ธ๐คชThe second chemo cycle is going more smoothly than the previous one, apart from an annoying and constant stomach ulcer pain that I'm hoping the doctor will help me fix today. With that out of the way I think I'll be able to start doing a little more, and first on my list is creating more new exciting content for you ๐ can't wait!!!...
Good morning everyone, in the mood for a naughty moment? Let..
Good morning everyone, in the mood for a naughty moment? Let's go, I'll bring my toys ๐คช๐๐Another video that weirdly disappeared from the feed a while ago ๐ I went through my vault and the original post was gone, so here it goes again, enjoy! โบ๏ธI started the second chemo cycle yesterday and it went smoother than the first, so hopefully I'll be able to stay more active in the coming days. Let's see how it goes, I'll play it by ear and keep you posted.Have a beautiful Wednesday ๐ โค๏ธ
Good morning guys, it's Sunday, let's jump in the pool or be..
Good morning guys, it's Sunday, let's jump in the pool or better yet, meet me at the dressing room... ๐ฆ๐คช๐This is a selection of pictures from the "Pool Party" series I did last year for Panzine and here. I tweaked them a bit for today's post.I was able to finish the second Instagram reel ๐ It took me a few days to edit it (which is crazy because in a normal situation it would have taken me three hours tops), but I'm happy with it. There's only one reel left to complete the challenge Instagram threw at me....
Good morning everyone, Friday is here! Let the games begin, ..
Good morning everyone, Friday is here! Let the games begin, I'm bringing my toys ๐คช๐๐I don't know why this video wasn't posted here ๐ I went through my vault and the post disappeared, so here it goes again, enjoy! โบ๏ธYesterday was weird, I felt kind of sick and without energy all day for no apparent reason (maybe it's something to do with the withdrawal from the chemo pills, who knows?), today I woke up feeling better and eager to make some music, and that's what I'll try to do, at least until lunch.Have a ...
Hey guys! Someone told me they wanted more bday muffin, so h..
Hey guys! Someone told me they wanted more bday muffin, so here you go ๐คช๐ง๐Pics were taken on the day of my 54th birthday, 3 years ago, so happy #throwbackthursday everyone โบ๏ธToday is my second day off from chemo until next Tuesday when I start my second cycle. I woke up and went to the clinic for tests, then had breakfast at home, and now I'm feeling a little weak and cold. They said this could happen, so I'm going to take the rest of the day and possibly tomorrow off to recover. These things take time, that's why they ...
Hey guys! Yesterday was a beautiful day, couldn't ask for a ..
Hey guys! Yesterday was a beautiful day, couldn't ask for a better birthday, do you want my muffin? โบ๏ธ๐๐We didn't get to take the traditional nude birthday pic yesterday, but I just found out I had never shared these pics with you (just one of them) ๐ We had a little gathering at home for a few friends (the ones who haven't had a cold or been in contact with COVID or something in the last few days) and it was great, I'll post a reel on Instagram later with little bits and pieces of it (if I have the energy to edit i...
Good morning guys! It's my 57th birthday ๐๐ถ๐๐ and here are t..
Good morning guys! It's my 57th birthday ๐๐ถ๐๐ and here are the first bday suit pics of the day ๐คช๐This is the second part of the set I shared yesterday. We took these last year, just after my bday. We will take the usual pics later and I will share them with you if not today, tomorrow first thing in the morning โบ๏ธI'm happy about today, this year is important, I'm celebrating it, but I'm also worried about my energy level, so I'll do what I can and that's it. Yesterday I managed to finish the Instagra...
Good morning guys! tomorrow is my 57th birthday, so here's a..
Good morning guys! tomorrow is my 57th birthday, so here's a selection of my favorite pics from last year's Bday photo shoot โบ๏ธ๐ผ๐๐ถWell, as it usually happens with me, and I know... I should have learned the lesson by now, I can't make plans and talk about them LOL ๐ they end up not happening.Remember those reels I was preparing for Instagram? I'm behind schedule (in an ideal world, the first one would have been posted last Friday). I don't think I'll be able to get them done in time the way I wanted. It&#...
Good morning everyone! Here's more from yesterday's photoset..
Good morning everyone! Here's more from yesterday's photoset, enhanced with a few improvements just for you and sweetened with a side of cake ๐ฐ๐คช๐ธ๐ผSunday and my first IG reel is still halfway done. Yesterday I was able to do the VoiceOver for it, post here, on JFF, Patreon and social media and that was it, had to spend the rest of the day resting. I'm going to try to do at least the raw cut this morning, wish me luck โบ๏ธHave a great Sunday ๐ โค๏ธ
Hey guys! Panzine made this pic so popular I thought it'd be..
Hey guys! Panzine made this pic so popular I thought it'd be fun to share the full set in color and with a few improvements just for you ๐ธ๐ผThe weekend is here, yesterday I was finally able to get out and shoot some scenes for a reel that I hope to edit and post today (if not, well, tomorrow). I'm not usually drawn to challenges, but this time it felt right. Instagram reached out to me last Wednesday, asking me to make a reel to reintroduce myself to my followers and potential new audiences. It's real and it could be a good opp...
Good morning guys! Let's start the day with a healthy breakf..
Good morning guys! Let's start the day with a healthy breakfast and a happy ending ๐ฆ๐คช๐This is the last chapter of the massage series with my dear friend @aaron_oso ๐ป can't wait to see him again โบ๏ธYesterday was a good day and I'm hoping today will be the same. I just have to watch my energy, I don't have as much as I think I do, but that's ok, it allows me to do things until lunch. If it continues like this I'll record the final vocals for one of the new songs tomorrow. I MUST finish the new songs ๐ค๐ผ...
Good morning guys! My birthday is coming up, so the other da..
Good morning guys! My birthday is coming up, so the other day I started playing with photography and filters... ๐ธ๐ผโบ๏ธOne of the consequences of this ordeal I've been in since June is that I've been worried about my body image. Photography has always helped me deal with these things, so the other day (thinking I should take the commemorative Bday suit pic on October 1) I started having fun with filters and these are a few I took yesterday, expanded and edited today just for you. Luckily I'm feeling more myself today and I...
Good morning guys, here is part three of the massage series,..
Good morning guys, here is part three of the massage series, I don't know about you but I could use one of these today ๐ โบ๏ธThis week is doing a number on me, can't get much done but trying to keep myself distracted and positive. The cycle ends on my birthday so hopefully I'll get a chance to enjoy the day. Thank you so much for being here for me, it means everything โค๏ธHave a nice Wednesday ๐ โค๏ธ
Good morning guys, let's put a happy end to this series with..
Good morning guys, let's put a happy end to this series with a nice and healthy breakfast ๐๐ฆ๐ any takers? This week is turning out to be different than I expected. I thought I would be able to do some work in the studio or create some content, but no, this first chemo cycle is hitting me hard, I have to lie in the recliner most of the day. I play solitaire, watch some TV and sometimes have fun posting on social media, but the pain doesn't let me do much else. The doctor says that maybe the next cycle will be less hard (not sure...
Happy Monday everyone! Here's a little warm-up to start the ..
Happy Monday everyone! Here's a little warm-up to start the week excited and wanting more ๐คช๐I just realized that my birthday is coming up. I'll be 57 on October 1st and this time I MUST celebrate. I'm trying to think of things to do that won't exhaust me. Live broadcasts? I'd love to, but I think it might be too much. Maybe a simple, elegant music video. Also a little party at home (wish you could come). I would love an orgy (never been to one!) but I guess that's out of the question too ๐คฃ๐ .Anyway, I would lo...
Good morning guys! Since you asked, here's part 2 of the mas..
Good morning guys! Since you asked, here's part 2 of the massage series I did with my dear friend @aaron_osoย ๐ปโบ๏ธ๐ฏ๐It felt so good! Can't wait to be able to go back and have another one of these. Weekend is going well, chemo isn't easy but with that in mind and taking my time to do things it's bearable. So the motto these days is: go with the flow, do what you can and that's ok.I also want to take a moment to thank you for being here, your support is greatly appreciated, both with your comments and messages as w...
A quick ๐ฆ๐ just because ๐คชWho wants to clean up?
A quick ๐ฆ๐ just because ๐คชWho wants to clean up?



















